As I've mentioned before, Alan and I were VERY surprised to find out that we were having a baby. It is another lesson to me that God is in control and His plans never fail to surprise me. For example:
About 11 years ago, I moved away from Montgomery to attend college in Nashville, TN. I fell in love with Nashville from the first day that I was there and vowed to NEVER move back to Alabama again... I've just recently entered my 4th year of being a Florence, AL resident :)
August 2006: I graduated from PT school and moved in with my parents in Florence temporarily. My plan was to live at home for 1 to 2 years and save my money so I could purchase a home in Nashville and live there... Did I mention that I've begun my 4th year in Florence??? As it turns out, I met Alan there and God apparently decided that he would be my future husband. Alan is one of the best parts of "God's Plan" so far.
Fast forward to earlier this summer. For the 2 years that I was taking birth control, I was miserable. I've never felt such a loss of control over my emotions, and my weight. I cried at least 5 nights a week for no reason at all and gained 15+ pounds because I also had NO energy whatsoever. It may have been depression, but I didn't think that was even a consideration since all of these "problems" started when I began taking birth control. So, around the beginning of June I sat down with Alan and had a serious discussion about me going off birth control. I did the research before and presented my case very well, my biggest point being "I'm not wanting to stop birth control so I can get pregnant." That was always MY plan, but apparently not God's. Alan agreed with the decision because he also saw the changes that the "pill" had caused. For those that know me well, you know that I've always had a great attitude and made jokes a lot. I'm even considered the "silly one" in my family. All that was gone during that 2 year period.
So, July 11th, 2009: I took my last pill.
Oops! August 12th, 2009 @ 4:00 pm: First + pregnancy test.
August 12th, 2009 @ 10:00 pm: Alan states "I'm not yet convinced." Second + pregnancy test.
August 13th, 2009 @ 7:30 am: I'm not fully convinced. Third + pregnancy test.
My (selfish plans): 1. Stop taking the pill, 2. Lose 10 pounds, 3. MAYBE start trying to get pregnant in October or November 2009.
God's plans: 1. Stop taking pill, 2. Get pregnant, 3. Gain 20 - 30 pounds, 4. Lose the weight after the baby arrives
Although God's plan will be a bit more challenging in the end, I think I'm up for it. He has blessed Alan and me with a good home, great parents (all who live in Florence and may handle the child care when I get back to work, hopefully), and a wonderful church home. This "little one" is another great blessing that He is giving to us. We are both praying diligently for the health and safety of this child and trust that His Will be done regardless of the outcome. I often think "Who am I, that I should be blessed by God?" The answer is always " I am His child, that He loves dearly."
That's all of my ramblings for now. Thanks for reading...
1 comment:
Our lives are almost opposite, but with the same underlying theme. :-)
MY selfish plan was to have a baby 3 years ago.
God's plan was obviously otherwise! That's one reason why this verse means so much to me & Baron:
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose. ~Romans 8:28
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